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Darling,

I know i shouldn't really be saying farewell like it's the last time we're going to meet. Don't worry. This blog isn't public and i ensure you that my uninhibited cheese will not humiliate you infront of your acquiantances and your friends. I shall smother you, without borders.

Ma'am. I'm sorry for all the pain i've caused you. Thank you for putting up with me. I know i'm not such an easy person to be with and you tolerate me well. Forgive me for demanding much from you. I try my best.

You have given me a good share of rainbows and sunshines. I will be savoury and use them carefully and sparingly while you're gone. I'm keeping the rest to use with you when you return. I grant you your freedom in Australia as long as you don't lie to me. You know this crap already. The happiest days of my life has been with you. Surprising as i have traveled the world, these eyes have seen the most magnificent sights, these hands have felt the softest of silk and this heart has had it's portion of emotions and more but yet, when i see you, literally i think to my self (and this is true) i think, is there any view i would rather be seeing right now? is there anything else i'd rather have brushing my skin? is there any other feeling i would rather enjoy? and i thought and i thought and i thought and the answer is always no... seriously. Now you know, when everytime i stare at you, you'll always ask me "WHY?", "WHY?"... and i will always answer "nothing, nothing"...

Undeniably there have been times where i have looked pissed, but it was mainly because i thought that you have left me... your heart no more next to mine...
but now i know better. You just space out, and you're an idiot.

I'm not going to give you any advise on how to live your life but i just want you to remember.. stay away from the bad stuff, sleep only with good guys.. pick them carefuly.. you're not cheap.. you rock. Forget me not. Don't forget to brush your teeth. Flush everytime you use the toilet. Wash your jeans regularly. Cut down on junk food. Exercise. You are beautiful, no need to look in the mirror too much. When things go bad, you always have me, and my hands await yours at all times. Look back on our good days to feel comfort. Look forward to coming back for even more comfort with me... When you look at my pictures, look into my eyes and be ensured that i'll be looking back. When i look into your eyes, i see sadness outside, destitution of something i cannot place, but i see happiness deep deep deep inside... My little Christian apple pie. Always remember me running my fingers through your hair. Remember me placing my hands on your cheek and holding your face, playing with your nose and pinching your chin. Remember our kiss of love. Left eyebrow, right eyebrow, left cheek, right cheek, nose, chin, corners of lips, and a hug that cannot be parted by the jaws of death itself...

Forgive me for the lack of poetry, but there's so many things i have yet to share with you, that i haven't been given the chance to do yet. I will miss every single thing about you. I already do.
I have never stopped my sayang for you. Never will. Since i met you i can't right that well nor can i paint or sing at all... probably my lfe felt content without all of this... just with u.
I will never forget your thousands of smiles. The tight grasp of your hand, passing through electric through my arm and giving my heart a jolt. BzzZZZzzz!!!

I love you ming. I'm sorry for the pain. I'm sorry i can't be your man. I'll sure as hell persist though!! I will be your man. Your number ONE. No one can bring me down when i'm with you.
I have never been happier. I hope you will find that someday too.... : )


-your predominant man

posted by Ben Samin @ 5:24 PM